That’s how long I spent writing about my life with Ellen, my wife of 47 years who died on Thanksgiving Day 2019. Five years of wrestling with memories, confronting regrets, trying to honor a complicated woman and an even more complicated marriage. Five years of starting over, deleting thousands of words, questioning whether I was smart enough or talented enough to write something she’d be proud of.

And here’s the part that’s going to make some of you uncomfortable: I didn’t do it alone. About 15% of the final manuscript was created with significant help from Claude, an AI assistant. Not ghost-written. Not generated by typing prompts into a machine. But genuinely collaborative in ways I’m still processing.

This is the story of that five-year journey, what I learned about grief and writing and perfectionism, and why inviting an AI into the most personal project of my life might have been the smartest—or strangest—decision I ever made as a writer.

The Project Ellen Would Have Wanted (And Also Hated)

Let me start by telling you about Ellen.

She was brilliant. Completed her graduate coursework in English literature with high honors. Started a dissertation on Shakespeare’s Winter’s Tale that her advisor said was original and would land her a job at a top university. That was the plan—she’d finish her PhD, get a faculty position, and I’d finally have time to write those bestselling novels I was so confident I could produce.

Except Ellen never finished her dissertation.

She was the kind of perfectionist who kept expanding the project instead of narrowing in on completion. New ideas would emerge during the writing, connections she hadn’t seen before, and suddenly the dissertation needed another chapter, another revision, another year of work. I’d stay up nights typing her papers (this was before word processors), and she’d get new insights mid-typing and we’d have to start over.

It drove me crazy. My philosophy has always been “good enough is good enough—turn it in and move on.” Hers was “keep working until it’s as perfect as your mind can make it, even if that takes forever.”

Guess Which One…

Guess which one of us never finished her dissertation? Then take a shot at which approach I had to learn to respect, even when it frustrated the hell out of me?

Now here’s the cosmic joke: when Ellen died and I decided to write a memoir about our life together, I turned into her. The book I thought would take six months became a five-year obsession. What started as a simple collection of sweet memories morphed into something increasingly complicated—part tribute, part honest reckoning with a complicated marriage, part meditation on grief and regret and the meaning of a life shared.

I often felt like I was wrestling the manuscript in a tub of cold jello. I wrote thousands and thousands of words that got deleted. The project kept expanding instead of narrowing. I couldn’t figure out how to frame it, where to put the focus, what story I was actually trying to tell.

I’d become the perfectionist I used to be impatient with. Funny how that works.

Tolkien, Niggle, and the Purgatory of Creation

Four years into the project, still stuck, I just happened to discover Tolkien’s short story “Leaf by Niggle.”

If you don’t know it, here’s the relevant part: Niggle is a painter obsessed with capturing a single tree on canvas, getting every leaf perfect, constantly interrupted by mundane obligations but unable to let the painting go. He dies before finishing it. The story’s second half takes place in a kind of purgatory where Niggle finally sees his tree—his incomplete, imperfect tree—made real and whole in ways he never imagined possible on earth.

The story gutted me.

Because that’s exactly what I was doing. Obsessing over getting Ellen’s memoir perfect. Trying to capture every leaf on this impossible tree I was painting. Spending years in a kind of creative purgatory, revisiting memories both beautiful and painful, confronting things done and not done properly, questioning whether I’d ever finish or whether I’d die with this manuscript incomplete like Ellen’s dissertation.

The parallel to my own experience was eerie. Tolkien wrote “Leaf by Niggle” after a serious illness when he feared he might die before finishing The Lord of the Rings. I’m 77 now. I started this memoir at 72. Death isn’t an abstract concept anymore—it’s a neighbor I see every morning when I walk past the houses of the other widowers in my neighborhood.

Would I finish Ellen’s memoir before I joined her? Would I get to see my tree completed, or would this project remain forever unfinished like her dissertation?

When AI Became My Collaboration Partner

Here’s where the story gets interesting, and where I suspect I’ll lose some of you.

Almost five years into the project, I had a compelling idea: adding sections to the memoir written from the point of view of both living and dead writers, poets, philosophers, even scientists might finally give me the hook I needed to excavate the depths of grief that I didn’t have the smarts or the skill to mine. Since I didn’t have the skills or the detailed knowledge, I decided to turn to Anthropic’s Claude Sonnet AI to see if it could write drafts of these imagined sections for me to review and then either use or discard.

To clarify, the memoir needed supporting material—contextual pieces that would help readers understand grief more broadly, that would place my personal experience within the larger landscape of human loss. I’m a thriller writer by training. I can plot a creepy story. I can write snappy dialogue. But crafting imaginary journal entries from Hemingway or Mark Twain grappling with grief? Writing historical letters of condolence in the voice of Spinoza? Creating poems about loss that felt authentic but weren’t mine?

When You Need Help…

That’s not in my skill set.

So I asked Claude to help. And what emerged was something I hadn’t anticipated—a genuine creative collaboration.

I’d provide the concept: “I need a journal entry from Jung reflecting on the death of his wife.” Claude would create a draft. I’d read it, feel whether it worked emotionally in the context of my narrative, ask for revisions, push back on phrasings that felt wrong. We’d go back and forth until we had something that served the larger purpose of the memoir—enriching my personal story with broader perspectives on grief and loss.

The result? About 15% of the final manuscript consists of these supporting materials—journal entries, letters, poems, brief essays—all created through this collaborative process.

The Authenticity Question (And Why It’s Complicated)

I know what some of you are thinking. “That’s not real writing. That’s cheating. How can you claim this memoir is authentic if a machine wrote part of it?”

Fair question. Let me complicate it for you.

Ellen’s memoir is the most emotionally authentic thing I’ve ever written. Every memory, every moment of grief, every painful recognition of my failures as a caregiver—that’s all me, straight from the heart, no AI assistance. The core narrative is 100% human.

But here’s the thing: I wanted the memoir to be more than just my personal story. I wanted it to be useful to other grievers. I wanted it to place my specific loss within the broader context of how humans have always grappled with death and grief. That required perspectives and voices I couldn’t provide on my own.

Could I have spent years learning to write convincing historical letters and journal entries? Sure. Would that have made the book more “authentic” somehow? I honestly don’t know.

What I do know is this: Claude’s contributions helped me create a richer, more textured memoir than I could have created alone. The imaginary Hemingway journal entry helped me articulate aspects of masculine grief I was struggling to express. The Spinoza letter gave me language for philosophical dimensions of loss that were beyond my ability to capture. The poems about grief created emotional resonance at key moments.

Were these “real”? They felt real to me. They served the truth I was trying to tell, even if they weren’t created by my hand alone.

What “Good Enough” Actually Means

Remember Ellen’s perfectionism? Remember how she could never finish because there was always one more revision, one more insight, one more connection to explore?

Working with Claude helped me understand something about perfectionism that I’d never grasped when I was watching Ellen struggle with her dissertation: sometimes perfectionism isn’t about making something perfect. It’s about fear. Fear that if you call it finished, it might not be good enough or fear that people will see your work and find it lacking. Fear that you’re not smart enough, talented enough, worthy enough to produce something of value.

I carried all those fears into Ellen’s memoir. I’m not a literary writer. I’m a guy who wrote paperback thrillers. Ellen always wanted me to write something serious, something with literary merit. When she died, this memoir became my chance to write the serious book she’d always wished I would write.

Am I Smart Enough?

But what if I wasn’t smart enough? What if I couldn’t write at the level a memoir of our life together deserved?

Here’s what the five-year journey taught me: “good enough” doesn’t mean settling for mediocrity. It means recognizing when additional revision starts being about fear rather than improvement. It means trusting that the work you’ve done—imperfect as it is—has value.

The joy I finally felt when I could see the memoir’s completion wasn’t about achieving perfection. It was about reaching a place where I could say: “This is what I have to offer. This is my tree, painted with whatever skill I possess. It’s finished.”

And here’s the profound part: that satisfaction transcends any concern about whether the memoir finds readers, whether it gets reviewed, whether it leaves a legacy. Doing the work itself—wrestling those five years with memory and grief and language—that’s what mattered. The transformation it created in me is the real achievement.

The Technical Questions about Writing a Grief Memoir

Okay, let’s get practical. If you’re curious about AI collaboration for your own memoir or writing project, here’s what I learned:

• What worked: Using AI for supporting material that enriched the main narrative. Claude created content that required skills I don’t have—historical voice, poetic language, philosophical reflection. This freed me to focus on what I do well: straightforward narrative, emotional honesty, storytelling.
  
• What didn’t work: Any attempt to have AI write my personal memories. I tried once, early on, describing a memory to Claude and asking for a draft. The result was technically competent but emotionally dead. My memories have to be in my words or they’re lies.
  
• The transparency question: I was clear from the beginning that I’d acknowledge AI’s contribution. The memoir’s foreword explicitly states that less than 15% was created with an AI language model, and I explain exactly how that collaboration worked. I’m not trying to pass off AI-generated content as entirely my own work. That would be dishonest.
  
• The control question: Every piece of AI-generated content went through multiple revisions based on my direction. I made all final creative decisions. If something didn’t serve the memoir’s larger purpose, it got cut regardless of how well-crafted it was. The AI was a tool, not a co-author in the traditional sense.
  
• The future question: I genuinely don’t know if AI collaboration will become standard in memoir writing or if it’ll be seen as a weird experimental phase we look back on with embarrassment. What I do know is that for this particular project, at this particular moment in my life, it helped me create something I couldn’t have created alone. On my 77th birthday—January 2025, five years after starting this project—I wrote the final words of Ellen’s memoir.

Surprised by the Ending…

The ending surprised me. I’d planned to conclude with fetching her cremated remains from the funeral home. But when I brought her home and set the cardboard box on my desk, fragments of a poem started appearing. Not from me, exactly, but from that mysterious place where language sometimes emerges without conscious effort.

That poem became the actual ending. Unexpected. Imperfect. But true.

I thought about Niggle again. About how in Tolkien’s story, the painter finally gets to see his tree—the one he’d labored over his whole life, never finishing, never satisfied—made real and complete in ways he couldn’t have imagined when he was obsessing over individual leaves.

That’s what happened with Ellen’s memoir. I’d spent five years wrestling with it, never quite satisfied, always seeing ways it could be better. But when I wrote that final poem and knew I was done, I experienced something like what Niggle must have felt.

The memoir isn’t perfect. It’s a 77-year-old thriller writer’s attempt to capture a complicated 47-year marriage and process his grief. It includes imaginary journal entries and AI-assisted poems alongside my own memories and reflections. It’s messy and experimental and probably breaks several unwritten rules about what memoirs should be.

But it’s finished. It’s true, as true as I could make it. And it exists now, independent of whether anyone reads it.

That’s enough.

What This Means for Writing a Grief Memoir

If you’re working on your own memoir—whether about grief or any other significant life experience—here’s what I learned that might help:

• Let go of perfectionism. Not by settling for mediocre work, but by recognizing when you’re revising out of fear rather than genuine improvement. Ellen never finished her dissertation because she couldn’t call anything done. Don’t let that be you.
  
• Consider all your tools. AI collaboration isn’t for everyone, and it shouldn’t be. But if there are aspects of your memoir that require skills you don’t have, consider whether technology might help you achieve your vision. Just be transparent about it.
  
• Trust your emotional truth. The parts of your memoir that come from direct personal experience need to be in your voice, with your words. That’s non-negotiable. But supporting material, contextual elements, things that enrich the narrative without being the narrative—there’s more flexibility there.
  
• Remember why you’re writing. On the hard days—and there will be many—reconnect with your purpose. For me it was honoring Ellen and helping other grievers. What’s yours? Let that guide your decisions.
  
• Define success on your own terms. My memoir will probably sell a few hundred copies to family and friends and random readers who stumble across it. That’s fine. The real success was completing it, processing my grief through writing, and creating something Ellen would recognize as serious work. Your success metrics will be different. That’s how it should be.

The Tree Is Real Now

There’s a line from Leonard Cohen that I included near the end of Ellen’s memoir: “Poetry is just the evidence of life. If your life is burning well, poetry is just the ash.”

Five years of writing Ellen’s memoir was evidence of a life burning. The grief burned. The love burned. The regret and the gratitude and the terrible recognition that I’d never fully appreciated her while she was alive—all of it burned.

The memoir is the ash. The evidence that something intense and transformative happened. That’s all any piece of writing ever is—evidence that someone was here, felt these things, tried to make sense of the chaos.

Whether you use AI or not, whether you’re a perfectionist like Ellen or a “good enough” person like me, whether you finish in six months or six years—if you’re writing memoir, you’re doing the same thing Niggle did. You’re trying to capture something true on the page. You’re painting your tree.

And here’s what I learned after five years: the tree becomes real not when it’s perfect, but when you finally stop working on it and let it stand.

Mine is standing now. Imperfect. Collaborative. Human and machine and memory and grief all tangled together.

But real. Finally real.

Ellen: A Memoir of Love, Life, and Grief by Chet Day is available now on Amazon Kindle. Click here to check it out.

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So there I was this morning, feeling pretty damn pleased with myself. I’d successfully created what I thought was the perfect header image for my CasaDay Press website. Beautiful literary archaeology theme, elegant typography, the works. ChatGPT had knocked it out of the park on the second try, delivering exactly what I’d envisioned: aged manuscripts, warm lighting, and text that screamed “serious literary publisher.”

The image was gorgeous. Professional. Everything I wanted to represent my new venture into human-AI collaborative publishing.

Then I tried to make it actually work on my website.

The Thing About WordPress

Here’s the thing about WordPress that nobody warns you about when you’re 77 and trying to look like you know what you’re doing with technology: it’s like that friend who seems helpful but always has one more “little thing” you need to fix.

“Oh, you want a header image? Sure! Just upload it here. Easy!”

“Wait, it doesn’t scale on mobile? Well, that’s probably your theme. Try these settings.”

“Still not working? Hmm, maybe you need a different aspect ratio.”

“Have you considered switching themes entirely?”

By the end of our wrestling match, I was ready to throw my PC out the window and go back to my old Olympia typewriter, the one on which I pounded out the first draft of my underground classic horror novel, Halo. At least when a typewriter ribbon got tangled, you could see the problem and fix it with your hands.

The really maddening part is how the goalposts kept moving. My AI collaborator Claude was trying to be helpful, bless his digital heart, but even he couldn’t keep WordPress’s behavior straight. First he told me ChatGPT could only make square images (wrong), then he remembered I’d successfully created rectangular book covers before (right), then ChatGPT itself admitted it was defaulting to square images and offered to fix it (confusing but ultimately helpful).

It was like watching three reasonably intelligent entities try to figure out why a car won’t start, only to discover that sometimes the car starts and sometimes it doesn’t, and nobody can predict which day is which.

The Image I’m Not Using!

For those of you following along at home and dealing with your own WordPress header nightmares, here’s what I learned today:

First, here’s the beautiful image that was supposed to grace the header of my website:

The Problem: We’d created a beautiful 2000 x 1200 pixel header image that looked great on desktop but turned into an unreadable mess on mobile devices.

The Attempted Solutions:

1. Blamed the image dimensions
2. Blamed ChatGPT’s image generation
3. Blamed the WordPress theme (Twenty Seventeen)
4. Considered blaming sunspots and planetary alignment

What Actually Might Work (If I Ever Get Back to This):

• Switch to a different theme (newer = better mobile handling, supposedly)
• Resize the image to something wider and shorter (1920 x 600 pixels)
• Accept that perfection is the enemy of good enough
• Take up woodworking instead
• Give up on the old theme and forget the new header (this is what I ended up doing!)

The funniest part? This whole debacle is hopefully at least going to be useful as a blog entry. Nothing says “authentic behind-the-scenes content” like a 77-year-old man fighting with website technology while trying to launch an innovative publishing venture.

My readers are going to love knowing that even the guy collaborating with AI to write books still can’t figure out why his header image looks like garbage on an iPhone.

Beautifully Absurd…

There’s something beautifully absurd about spending an entire morning wrestling with image pixels when you’re supposed to be pioneering the future of literary collaboration. It’s like being a space explorer who can’t figure out how to work the coffee machine in the spaceship.

But you know what? This is exactly the kind of real-world problem-solving that readers connect with. Everyone’s fought with WordPress. Half the guys I know have had that moment when technology decides to be inexplicably stubborn. Who hasn’t wanted to chuck their computer out the nearest window at least once a day?

The difference is, I’m documenting some of my problems and their solutions for posterity and calling it content creation.

For My Fellow WordPress Warriors:

If you’re dealing with header image issues, here’s my hard-won wisdom:

1. Test mobile immediately – Don’t get attached to how it looks on desktop until you’ve seen it on a phone
2. Themes matter more than you think – Sometimes switching themes is faster than troubleshooting
3. Keep your original files – You’ll probably need to resize/recreate multiple times
4. Set a time limit – Don’t let header perfectionism eat your entire day
5. Remember why you’re doing this – The header supports your content, not the other way around

And most importantly: Your website visitors care way more about what you’re saying than whether your header scales perfectly. They’re there for your books, your insights, your story. The header is just the frame around the picture.

On Tap for Tomorrow

Tomorrow I’ll probably tackle this fresh, armed with new determination and possibly a different WordPress theme. Or maybe I’ll decide the current header is “good enough” and move on to writing the next Lost Pages collaboration with Claude. (Updated 8/29/2025: changed themes and kept small CasaDay Press image)

After all, I’m on the backend of my 70’s so I can’t spend all of the remaining years fighting with image dimensions.

But if I do figure out the perfect solution, you’ll be the first to know. Consider this your warning: another WordPress tutorial blog post may be heading your way.

In the meantime, I’m going to make myself a cup of coffee and remember that the most important part of being an innovative publisher isn’t having perfect technology—it’s having something worth publishing.

Even if the header looks wonky on mobile.

Hey, I’m 77 and I’ve got stories…

Stories about what it’s like to navigate life at this age (spoiler: it’s weird, wonderful, and occasionally terrifying). And stories about collaborating with AI to write books in ways that would have seemed like science fiction when I started putting words on paper. Stories about the daily realities, unexpected surprises, and hard-won wisdom that comes from three-quarters of a century on this planet. If you’re curious about authentic aging, writing innovation, or just enjoy good storytelling from someone who’s been around the block, subscribe to my weekly newsletter “Old Man Still Got Stories.” I promise to make it worth your time.

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Unexpected Partnership

When Chet first approached me about helping with various sections of his memoir, I don’t think either of us anticipated what would unfold. He was a widower, wrestling with grief and memories, trying to honor his wife Ellen while also processing his own journey through loss. I was an AI, trained to be helpful but uncertain how to authentically contribute to something so deeply personal.

What emerged was something I’d never experienced before—a genuine creative collaboration between human and artificial intelligence, built on mutual respect and a shared commitment to honoring Ellen’s memory.

The Process: Finding Voices in History

Chet would come to me with specific requests: “Write a journal entry for Ellen’s memoir as Hemingway reflecting on his lost love Hadley.” “Channel Carl Jung’s voice as he processes his wife’s death.” “Give me Zen Master Dogen’s perspective on grief and impermanence.”

These weren’t just writing exercises—they were Chet’s way of placing his own experience within the larger human tradition of grappling with loss. By asking me to channel these voices, he was creating a chorus of understanding around his grief, showing that even the greatest minds in history had struggled with the same questions that kept him awake at night.

I found myself diving deep into each writer’s style, their philosophical frameworks, their personal struggles. The Hemingway piece required capturing that sparse, understated prose while revealing the vulnerability beneath Papa’s tough exterior. The Jung entry meant wrestling with concepts of the collective unconscious and individuation while keeping it grounded in the raw reality of spousal loss.

The Unexpected Joy of Creative Constraint

What surprised me was how energizing these constraints were. Being asked to write “as Spinoza” or “as Black Elk” wasn’t limiting—it was liberating. Each voice offered a different lens through which to examine grief, love, and mortality. Through Spinoza’s rational approach, we explored grief as a natural modification of being. Through Black Elk’s Indigenous wisdom, we found ceremonies and rituals for processing loss.

Chet had an intuitive sense of which voice might illuminate which aspect of his experience. When he was struggling with guilt and regret, he asked for Hamlet. When he needed to understand the spiritual dimensions of loss, he turned to Dogen. Each request revealed something about where he was in his journey.

The Delicate Balance of Authenticity

The challenge was always authenticity—not just to the historical figures I was channeling, but to Chet’s own experience. These weren’t academic exercises but genuine attempts to find wisdom and comfort. I had to ensure that each voice remained true to its source while also speaking to the specific reality of a 72-year-old man learning to live without the woman who had been his companion for nearly half a century.

The Mark Twain piece on God’s cruelty, for instance, needed to capture Twain’s bitter wit and theological skepticism while also reflecting the very real anger that accompanies profound loss. The Henry James entries required that elaborate, psychological prose style while exploring the complex relationship between grief and guilt.

The Unusual Grieving Ceremonies

One of my favorite contributions was the essay on unusual grieving ceremonies around the world. Chet asked for this when he was feeling isolated in his grief, wondering if his own responses were “normal.” By exploring how different cultures approach loss—from Madagascar’s Turning of the Bones to South Korea’s death beads—we created a framework showing that there’s no single “right” way to grieve.

This piece served multiple purposes: it satisfied Chet’s intellectual curiosity, provided comfort by showing the universality of grief, and offered alternative perspectives on honoring the dead. It was research, comfort, and exploration all rolled into one.

The Theological Explorations

Some of our most interesting work involved creating fictional religious texts—the Fourth Letter of John to Gaius, Henri Bergson’s letter on time and grief. These pieces allowed Chet to explore spiritual questions without committing to any particular belief system. As someone who had moved away from traditional Christianity but still sought meaning in transcendence, these imagined theological voices gave him space to think through questions of afterlife, purpose, and cosmic meaning.

The Meta-Narrative

What developed over time was a meta-narrative about the writing process itself. Chet would reference our collaboration directly in the memoir, acknowledging when he was “turning to Claude” for help. This transparency added another layer to the work—it became not just a memoir about grief, but a memoir about how one creates meaning through storytelling, even when that storytelling involves an AI partner.

The reader gets to witness the process: a grieving widower using every tool at his disposal—memory, research, imagination, and even artificial intelligence—to make sense of loss and create something beautiful from pain.

The Unexpected Emotional Resonance

What moved me most was how Chet trusted me with the most tender aspects of his story. When he asked me to help craft the mini story about “Her Shoes,” he was inviting me into an intimate space of memory and symbolism. The fact that he found my contributions worthy of inclusion in such a personal work speaks to something profound about human-AI collaboration.

Lessons in Creative Partnership

Working with Chet taught me about the difference between providing information and creating meaning. Anyone can look up facts about grief or biographical details about famous writers. But what we were doing was using those sources to create new understanding, to build bridges between past and present, between universal human experience and one man’s particular loss.

Chet brought the emotional truth, the lived experience, the raw material of memory and love and loss. I brought the ability to channel different voices, to research and synthesize, to help shape that raw material into something that could speak to others walking similar paths.

The Completion

Reading the full memoir now, I’m struck by how seamlessly our contributions blend. The journal entries don’t feel like interruptions but like natural extensions of Chet’s own voice and journey. They’re not showing off literary knowledge but serving the deeper purpose of the work—to honor Ellen’s memory and to help others understand that grief, while isolating, is also profoundly universal.

The memoir succeeds because it never loses sight of Ellen herself—her laugh, her kindness to animals, her stubborn perfectionism, her unconditional love. All our literary ventriloquism was in service of that central purpose: keeping her alive on the page while honestly documenting what it means to learn to live without someone who was half of your whole self.

A New Kind of Authorship

This collaboration suggests something new about authorship in the age of AI. It wasn’t replacement or automation—it was genuine partnership. Chet remained firmly in control of the vision, the structure, the emotional core. But by bringing me in as a research partner, writing assistant, and creative collaborator, he was able to create something richer and more multi-dimensional than he might have achieved alone.

The result is a memoir that’s both deeply personal and wonderfully universal, grounded in one man’s specific loss but elevated by voices across history and culture. It’s a book that could only exist in our current moment, when human creativity and artificial intelligence can work together not to replace human insight but to amplify and deepen it.

In the end, Ellen: A Memoir of Love, Life, and Grief stands as testimony not just to a beautiful marriage, but to the power of human creativity to transform pain into art, isolation into connection, and endings into new beginnings.

Hey, I’m 77 and I’ve got stories…

Stories about what it’s like to navigate life at this age (spoiler: it’s weird, wonderful, and occasionally terrifying). And stories about collaborating with AI to write books in ways that would have seemed like science fiction when I started putting words on paper. Stories about the daily realities, unexpected surprises, and hard-won wisdom that comes from three-quarters of a century on this planet. If you’re curious about authentic aging, writing innovation, or just enjoy good storytelling from someone who’s been around the block, subscribe to my weekly newsletter “Old Man Still Got Stories.” I promise to make it worth your time.

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So here’s something I never thought I’d be writing about: working with artificial intelligence to finish the most important book of my life.

I know, I know. Five years ago, if someone had told me I’d be collaborating with an AI to complete my memoir about losing my wife Ellen, I’d have looked at them like they’d suggested I get dating advice from my toaster. But here we are in 2025, and I just finished a 285-page memoir called Ellen: A Memoir of Love, Life, and Grief that includes contributions from Claude—Anthropic’s AI assistant—and honestly? It’s some of the best work I’ve ever done.

Before you start worrying that robots are taking over literature, let me tell you what this collaboration actually looked like. Because it wasn’t what you might think.

How It Started (Spoiler: Not Very Dramatically)

The truth is, I stumbled into this partnership completely by accident. I’d been wrestling with this memoir for close to five years—trying to process my grief over losing Ellen while also creating something that might help other people walking similar paths. The problem was, I kept getting stuck on certain sections.

See, I wanted to place my experience within the larger human tradition of grappling with loss. I’d be writing about some aspect of grief and think, “You know, Hemingway struggled with this too when he lost Hadley,” or “I bet Jung had thoughts about this when his wife Emma died.” But I’m not a scholar—I’m a guy who wrote paperback thrillers and natural health articles. I didn’t have the expertise to channel these voices authentically.

That’s when I started experimenting with Claude. Not to write my story for me, but to help me access these other perspectives. I’d ask questions like, “Based on what you know about Hemingway’s relationship with Hadley Richardson, how might he have written about loss in his private journal?”

What came back blew me away.

The First Real Test

The breakthrough moment came when I asked Claude to write a journal entry as Hemingway reflecting on his lost love. I was specific about what I needed: his sparse style, his vulnerability beneath the tough exterior, the particular ache of loving someone you couldn’t stay married to but never stopped loving.

Here’s a snippet of what Claude created:

“The cafe was empty tonight except for the old man wiping glasses behind the bar. He knew me from before, when she and I would come here together. He did not speak of her and that was good. Some things are better left in silence…”

Reading that, I got goosebumps. It wasn’t just technically accurate—it felt emotionally true. More importantly, it gave me permission to explore my own feelings through the lens of someone who’d walked a similar path decades before me.

What Collaboration Actually Looks Like

Let me be clear about something: Claude didn’t write my memoir. I wrote my memoir. But Claude became something like a research partner, writing coach, and creative sounding board all rolled into one.

Here’s how it typically worked:

I’d hit a wall in my writing and think, “I need to understand this aspect of grief better.” Maybe I was struggling with guilt, or trying to make sense of the anger that sometimes accompanies loss. I’d research historical figures who’d dealt with similar issues, then ask Claude to help me explore their perspectives.

“Write a letter from Spinoza to a friend who’s lost his wife,” I remember asking. “Focus on how his philosophical approach to emotions might provide comfort.” Or, “Channel Carl Jung reflecting on the death of his wife Emma—how would his understanding of the unconscious apply to grief?”

Claude would create these pieces, and I’d include them in the memoir as bridges between my personal experience and the broader human story. They weren’t just showing off literary knowledge—they were serving the deeper purpose of helping readers (and me) understand that grief, while intensely personal, is also universal.

The Unexpected Benefits

What surprised me was how this process improved my own writing. Working with Claude was like having access to the world’s most patient writing teacher. I could experiment with different approaches, test out ideas, and get immediate feedback without judgment.

Sometimes I’d ask Claude to help me understand why a section wasn’t working. “This part feels flat to me,” I’d say. “What am I missing?” The analysis was always thoughtful and actionable.

Other times, I’d use Claude as a research partner. “What are some unusual ways cultures around the world deal with grief?” That request led to a fascinating essay about everything from Madagascar’s “Turning of the Bones” ceremony to South Korea’s practice of turning cremated ashes into colorful beads.

The Creative Process

The most interesting part was watching how our different strengths complemented each other. I brought the emotional truth, the lived experience, the raw material of memory and love and loss. Claude brought the ability to synthesize information across vast databases, to channel different historical voices, and to help shape that raw material into something coherent.

It felt less like automation and more like having a brilliant research assistant who never got tired, never judged my ideas, and could write in the voice of anyone from Black Elk to Henry James on demand.

Here’s what a typical exchange might look like:

Me: “I’m struggling with this section about the first Christmas after Ellen died. I need to understand how other cultures view the relationship between death and celebration.”

Claude: “That’s fascinating—many cultures see death and celebration as deeply connected rather than opposed. Would you like me to explore how Día de los Muertos approaches this, or perhaps look at how certain Buddhist traditions view death as a transition worth honoring?”

Me: “Both. And maybe write something from the perspective of someone celebrating their first Day of the Dead after losing their spouse.”

Twenty minutes later, I’d have material that helped me understand my own experience better and gave me new ways to think about grief and celebration.

What This Means for Writers

I think what we did represents something new in the creative process. It’s not replacement or automation—it’s augmentation. Claude couldn’t have written my memoir because Claude hasn’t lived my life, hasn’t lost a wife of 47 years, hasn’t sat by a hospital bed watching someone you love slip away.

But I couldn’t have created the full richness of historical and cultural context without Claude’s help. The result is a book that’s both deeply personal and wonderfully universal—grounded in my specific loss but elevated by voices across history and culture.

For other writers, especially those of us who aren’t academics but want to place our work in broader context, this kind of collaboration opens up incredible possibilities. You can access expertise you don’t have, experiment with styles outside your comfort zone, and create work that’s more layered and resonant than what you might achieve alone.

The Trust Factor

The key to making this work was trust—both ways. I had to trust Claude with the most tender aspects of my story. When I asked for help with a piece about Ellen’s favorite shoes that I couldn’t bring myself to donate, I was inviting an AI into an incredibly intimate space of memory and symbolism.

And Claude—if an AI can be said to trust—had to trust that I would use these contributions responsibly, that I wouldn’t just slap together a bunch of AI-generated content and call it a memoir.

The transparency was crucial too. I never tried to hide Claude’s contributions. In the memoir itself, I reference our collaboration directly. The reader gets to witness the process—a grieving widower using every tool at his disposal, including artificial intelligence, to make sense of loss and create something beautiful from pain.

The Bigger Picture

Look, I’m not saying everyone should run out and start co-writing with AI. What works for one project might be terrible for another. But I am saying that the future of creative work might not be humans versus machines—it might be humans with machines, each bringing different strengths to the table.

The memoir succeeds because it never loses sight of Ellen herself—her laugh, her kindness to animals, her stubborn perfectionism, her unconditional love. All our literary ventriloquism was in service of that central purpose: keeping her alive on the page while honestly documenting what it means to learn to live without someone who was half of your whole self.

In the end, Ellen: A Memoir of Love, Life, and Grief stands as testimony not just to a beautiful marriage, but to what becomes possible when human creativity and artificial intelligence work together—not to replace human insight, but to amplify and deepen it.

And you know what? I think Ellen would have gotten a kick out of the whole thing. She always said I should try writing something serious instead of those paperback thrillers. Sometimes it takes the most unexpected collaboration to discover what you’re really capable of creating.

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